I was looking stuff up on the internet about how best to self treat your depression &, as long as you aren't about to hurt yourself or others, one of the best things to do is to drag yourself around & kinda fake it. You should acknowledge that you feel like shit, yes, but then go about your day doing all the stuff that needs to get done. Do that in touch with your feeling bullshit, but then suck it up.
So I'm trying. I'm writing this useless post & I'm knitting a little everyday, I'm not canceling every appointment under the sun. I know in a few weeks no matter what I do I'll feel better, but maybe since I won't have let so any tasks & chores build up it'll pass sooner. I wonder if by letting so much not get done I'm creating an extra stressor that keep the depression here long. Who knows & by dragging my ass around this year instead of wallowing won't really be anything conclusive, but it beats crying in the corner.
Maybe you should meet me for tea or lunch someday.
ReplyDeleteFrom years of experience, I do agree that faking it is pretty much the best solution. I have a great therapist too, who constantly grounds me by saying "what is the worst that can happen and how can you handle it?" You know me, a hangnail is the end of the world when I'm depressed or anxious. She also makes me allocate certain times to worrying, and it works occasionally. Her main, sticking point is that, despite everything I've been through and everything Ive feared happening, I'm still standing. I somehow manage to hang on despite unemployment, being broke, loosing one house and moving to another, etc and so on.
ReplyDeletej - I'd love to meet up sometime, sadly I still don't drive so I doubt I'll be down in Northfield anytime soon. :(
ReplyDeleteI'm still faking it & keep hoping I'll feel better soon, depression sucks.
ReplyDeleteThankfully, I do drive - at least I do when Nika's sleeping.
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