Sunday, July 26, 2009

A bit blue

I'm tired, tired, tired of being chronically ill. I feel like this isn't my life, I've no clue how I got here or what I'm supposed to do now.... What becomes of a woman in her early 30s who's disabled? My mind is sharp (well as much as the gabapentin allows, lol), I am a smart, vibrant, outgoing woman who sits at home all the time & it's depressing. I think about going to college, but can I keep up with the course loads? What would I even go to school for? Is there a job I could do? If so what is it? I guess I feel a bit like a waste.